Today I watched three movies, the matrix trilogy. I've watched it earlier also. Why I wanted to watch is not clear to me. It is simply like I was browsing our LAN and then found DVD print of this whole series and then I felt like watching. So I watched. It's all complicatedly simple.

Today I saw the attendence sheet in CE201 tutorial. I've already missed 3 tutorials out of 7. And I've missed 5 classes also. In MA203, in last three lectures I was absent in two. Hey ram! What I'm going to do? rather the more accurate question is what they are going to do..? It is going to affect me badly. Am I so casual or just pretending to be..? Well I'm not sure.

Now-a-days I'm not sure about so many things. But, past few days were very good for me. Its all started with my b'day 4th sep. My old friend 'Nin' called me asking for some help. Although I couldnt help her but she helped me alot. Well..! She reminded Dona my birthday and I was surprised to see dona's sms and then call. Oops! I missed her so much. After 5-6 months of confusion it's all seems fine. .

Ya! I met a girl that day named 'nitika' from Pune. She is a friend of my friend Mudrika. Now, why I'm writing here about her. Well, sometimes I forget the name of the girls I meet and sometimes I cant recognise the girl. Recently 'shipra dhami' mailed me. And I was thinking for an hour ki who is she? Suddenly I realised that I worked with her for few days on a project and had a long walk in IIT on a pleasant evening. Also I chatted her afterwards. When I met her, I was in 1st year 2nd sem and she was completing her M.Tech. One more girl were there with her pooja. anyway, That day I've decided to write about every person I met across my life. So that, I can recall them any time.

So, I was talking about my b'day. One more important thing, That day our hostel won the 'inter hostel dramatic competiton'. I was also in the cast with akhil and anmol. All three got special mention.

Anyway, As any other weekend I've decided to study. I'm not sure if I'm going to do what I've decided. It is raining now. I wanted to be in rain but having cold n cough. I remember some lines from the movie moulin rouge: "out there it may be raining, In here its entertaining."

I'vent wrtten about these lines naa. Once in class of 'transport phenomena' Shenoy sir was elaborating soemthing and he said, '....out there is.....' and I've written these lines on my notebook. then he said, '...you can see here...; and I've added two more lines (although I'm terrible in english, but at that moment perfect words came into my mind). Then he started talking about 'region' and I added two more lines. I read these 6 lines together and I found that these lines were depicting the exact mental status of mine at that time. After reading these lines again, I remembered the promish I made with myself. And I started studying in that class.

Out there it may be raining
In here is entertaining.
Out there you can see tire
In here I'm full of desire.
Out there is shady region
In here is clear vision.

Main point is, after street play thing I started my sudy again with moral support of some of my very good friends. But then, Drama competition came into the picture and again I messed up with myself. Neither I'm blaming nor I'm regretting. I'm just mentioning. It is a problem with myself. I cant do two very different things simultaneously (sometimes I can do 10 at a time, but not if one of them is drama). I always prefer drama and my friends over anything else. Although I know ki most of my friends are not my friend.

I've started talking about friends. Isn't it a little strange that I'm swithing the topics too fast. Actually, I have so many thoughts scattering around in mind and my hands cant type as fast as my mind thinks. So, friends...oh! I forget to introduce my new friend ravali. She is from Hyderabad and in 1st year civil engg. We spent alot of time together chatting and talking..I should write nice time. huh! And the rumours are we are a pair. What the hell?

This rumour thing is best (or worst!?) part in IIT. Although I dont give a damn to it but, everyone is not alike. Now, I'm wondering ki I started with the movie matrix and I ended it here. See the post title again, "Don't think you are, know you are'. I guess, I havnt written what I was going to write but written what I dont want to.

I dont think I am, also I dont know I am. But, I think that I know I am.